In thought.

Ultimately, I have come to terms.

I'm not going to lie. I just have to laugh when things pile up in the wrong places. I can't stand the fact that things are taken places they weren't meant to be- but I've also come too far to act like this is worth my while- in the sense of dwelling and definitely retaliation (to even think of it is hilarious). Maybe this is where I lay my head, I haven't strayed away from a love to be blunt. Save the sugarcoating for someone else, far from me. A decision made well does not always come with a pat on the back.

It's funny to watch these things play out when I'm holding onto grace. And it's so different with God. Comical, we could hit the rewind button- and watch this scene from an unrecognizable perspective of the past. There's something to be said about this though, as Jesus told His disciples, just SHAKE the dust off of your feet, and keep going. Accepted, unaccepted- for the call we go on. And who will hold us down? Who will take me and hold me back? I haven't the weakest of points to let it happen. And if there's talk behind me, guess where I'm going to leave it? You guessed right if you said behind.

“Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.”- Colossians 3:12

In the midst of what we do not ask for, we are immersed in what we have. And in that bag of possessions is love that sees beyond what feelings are beaten by. I will choose to remember this when time has taken its hardest toll. The cost, the process, and the end result. And even if persecution in its various forms appears to have won, I will come out victorious in the eyes of God. Staying pure with God- is staying pure with those around you. A complete surrender must be sewn together with a complete submission. No word, action, or betrayal will hold power over my life. If this is a lesson, I would say it is worth learning.