bloody and beautiful

I LOVE the Lord, because He has heard [and now hears] my voice and my supplications.Because He has inclined His ear to me, therefore will I call upon Him as long as I live. -Psalm 116:1-2 AMPLIFIED

You know what's funny when you go through such an intense season and God starts to speak to you about the next...and you start to feel the transition into the new season. And then the intensity of that season suddenly socks you in the gut with everything it has....all over again? [[[[I guess it just has to go out with a bang....quite literally. ]]]] Ahahah I love it, that was this week. The explosion of righteous indignation: Coughed up a lot of spiritual blood, cried my eyes out, freaking lost my cool and wanted to murder the devil so bad for putting up such a fight against me, but you know what I totally count it all jOy.
One of my mentors told me this so many times and I really love it "things will get worse before they get better".... I truly believe it....I think when you're facing so much resistance, attack, and everything seems to fall through....it's a big neon sign saying hey you're going in the right direction. Satan doesn't want you to have it all...he doesn't want you to be in the perfect will of God, he gags at the thought of you inheriting the blessings of God. So much righteous indignation sprung up from this particular occasion of the getting worse this time... & I really feel like walls were knocked down in the spiritual realm this week/weekend. It's always going to hold true that what the enemy meant for evil God turns around for good. He can't ever win, he won't ever win. What a summer it's been. But this was the week I'll probably never ever forget.
I love God so much and I love that He loves me enough to allow me to be strengthened. I am living in His dream for my life...and more and more the vision is set beautifully before me. Sometimes it takes a lot of blood---taking up your cross daily is radically redefined in my mind. Hope, hope, HOpe! I will always have hOpe in God;;;; and I have NEVER and will never say contrary to such. God spoke this to me tonight: "the unstoppable life planned for you".... think about it. UNSTOPPABLE.