received an apology for a stab in the back.
& then some.----------------------i had not expected this, as the two of us had conversation over dinner. there's so much that had happened...so much I had come to terms with through blood, tears, and pain. Coping is a method of the useless kind, getting by is only temporary, and resolving is the hardest to fathom, but healing- healing is key.
May my vindication come from You;
may Your eyes see what is right.
-Psalm 17:2
that day last week, i keep thinking about, and the few other occasions with others like this.
After undergoing a series of betrayal or abuse without someone telling you it wasn't your fault, it's natural that you begin to believe it was. The truth of the situation, the truth of the matter gets so beaten and worn down because you're exhausted and the last thing you want to do is fight after being fought. I just chose through these ordeals to cling to God, to claim Him as my vindication. I had not expected Him to ever bring some of these people to humble themselves to me.
It's funny the way God shows you that your healing is not yet done. And when He brings it into completion, you're kinda just in shock. There's more to come, there's a deeper pouring out of His love.
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