I am so filled up. In all my brokenness I never pictured God coming so close, so near, with so much love. I know so much about my savior, I believe so deeply in His ability to take the worst of me and make it into something beautiful...but somewhere along the way- all that locked in the safety deposit box of my own heart..I stopped coming back to view it, to remind myself of what worth and value it was. God was stretching out His arms with a key He never wished to be crafted. Unlock this box. Take out your belongings. It's funny how even when you are in love you can be worlds apart from the one you love, and the true purpose for the way you live for and with each other.
I'm seeing my life so differently now. God is so tender in handling my life. He really has begun to reach to me on such a deep level, but so gently. I am operating out of a new grace. I am driven by such a real love. I feel like a new person. It all started when He began to tell me over and over and over that He would meet me where I was at.
I've been through so much my whole life, but especially the past 5 years or so. It's so crazy. It blows my mind what I've overcome, what I've endured, what I've held out hope for. And what I have now in my life I know I wouldn't trade it for the world. He's teaching me real relationship. He's showing me true leadership. He's communicating with me in real prayer. He's ministering to me with real love. Everything is so REAL. And it's not that it wasn't before. It's not that I wasn't before. But there is such depth now, and even in that...I'm only scratching the surface.
And now more than ever before in my life...I'm SO EXCITED to share God, to share Jesus, to bring the Holy Spirit with me to everyone! It's so real.
My passion. My ministry. My gifts. My life. I have a new understanding, and God is walking with me into something beautiful.
